Tuesday, 21 February 2006


Give APOPHENIA a chance (for pete’s sake)
As I am progressing through my astral projection techniques, I’m slowly but steadily making progress. I might not have had a complete conscious OBE yet, but I’m quite close to it I know it. My dreams have become more symbolic lately. I’m noticing synchronicity and telepathy all around… As I said I’m perhaps just trying to see patterns where there are none, but as a true sufferer of apophenia, I’d rather think there are. Anyway part of the whole experience of astral projecting, is that you do discover patterns and symbols in your life all around. This apophenic experience one may feel on the physical plane happens because you tune yourself towards the higher, implicated planes where symbolism, unity and synchronicity prevail. So, although from a physical perspective those patterns you see might not be altogether valid, from an astral perspective it is just the first step to your “initiation” as a conscious astral entity. Henceforth, if you manage to reach a high spiritual state in the astral plane while still well and living in the physical plane, you will no longer be an astral body trapped in a physical body, but an astral body that uses the physical body merely as vehicle, for its own convenience and understanding. When you reach this ‘driving’ state, you no longer see/feel the physical world solely with your physical eyes and 5 senses, but you use the higher medium of intuition and of course your third eye. This means that the world no longer makes sense in its physicality or material substance, things are no longer things, ie. they are no longer separate from each other. And this is what the astral ‘eyes’ achieve really, they diminish the separations between things and rather concentrate on the connections between things. These infinite connections between things are the only things that matter from the astral perspective. Everything in the astral plane is connected and coherent, and so will the physical world manifest itself (perhaps only partly) as you develop you astral understanding. Enter the world of implications, meaning, symbolism, and non-causality. Can’t get better than that now can it.

Thursday, 16 February 2006

MRK vs. HemiSync

Hemi-Sync® Gateway affirmation
I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world. Therefore, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience; to Know, to Understand; to Control, to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me. Also, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development, and experience are equal to or greater than my own. I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires.


MRK Exit DEaffirmation™
Thought you were special. Thought you were different. But maybe I’m just suffering from apophenia – seeing connections and patterns where there are none, or perhaps it’s just a passive side effect of synchronicity. Procrastination and internalisation. Black holes in my aura. Wish for regression, wish for projection. Need to realign. Complete annihilation. I have come, I have seen, and now it’s time to exit. I need the key, the answer, the truth. I know that I will find the answer there; I know it won’t make things easier, but at least it will be a starting point. I need to access to my Akashic records. I need to heal myself and others. I need to regain my memories and thus rejoin my family. I am a lost star seed, wishing to go back home.

Tuesday, 7 February 2006


Last night I experienced a state of dual consciousness during an astral projected lucid dream. My guardians presented me with my own brain to demonstrate how I was experiencing a dual consciousness. I was outside my brain in a more subtle physical existence, a more lucid one and a more fluid one, it felt like I was made out of liquid, but quite thicker than water. My brain was presented as a display in a museum, it too possessed this fluid, LSD-like, appearance. It was brought to my attention by my guardians (although they are now but shadows in my memory, although I do remember their giving hands) that I was in fact outside my brain looking at it, yet at the same time it thinks, which means that I think. Suddenly my brain started thinking, “I have astral projected, I must remember this when I wake up.” It is a paradox but I had in fact witnessed myself/mybrain thinking from a third perspective, as if I was not my brain, or more like my brain had been objectified and diminished below the true intelligence of the astral existence. As soon as my brain started to think independently of me, it started witnessing me – the brainless me. So in effect, I was watching myself watching myself. It is very difficult to explain – imagine looking yourself at the mirror, while you are simultaneously behind the mirror looking at yourself through the mirror. This state didn’t last for long as I (which part of I?) tried to concentrate more on recording the incident so that I could remember it when I wake up. I still have bad memory issues with my astral projections, but obviously I’m working on it, and it has paid off last night. Was it an astral projection or perhaps a wishful dream? No one can really tell at this point, but this is just my physical self that is constantly questioning here.

It is interesting how always in the Eastern based philosophies, but also in the more modern alternate reality investigations, there always seems to be an unconceivable plane – what some people call God. See, the highest ever plane for someone to reach is the Soul Plane, or Soul residence. This is the true home of the soul, the source, and the only plane that is indestructible. But deeper in the centre of the soul plane lie another 3 planes that no one can access. First is the invisible area, so you can’t even see it, then inside it is the forbidden area and then the ultimate centre is the anonymous centre. Quite a nice collection of names there, particularly… friendly. What is God hiding anyway? Those three planes are meant to be inconceivable, inaccessible, unborn, unlimited etc. etc. So we agree to some sort of dictatorship here – although its citizens might be more than willing. See the citizens of Soul City, have ultimate knowledge – they know what is beyond their own plane simple because otherwise we wouldn’t have this information ourselves. They are very content with the condition of things, they realise the importance of purpose and of the karmic journey, they exist in inconceivably higher states of consciousness and morality, they are the true infinites. When you reach infinity I guess you are a god, so there is no reason for you to question anything, in fact you have no questions whatsoever. It still bugs me though, why should the source remain inaccessible? One explanation could be that this ‘source’ is not really the ultimate source. Perhaps and most probably there is a post-cosmic plan beyond the reaches of our knowledge. Perhaps ‘God’, this anonymous centre, is just one of many of these consciousness ‘balls’ that exist in a post-conscious environment (as previously discussed). Now that is truly an unconceivable state, a supra-deus state. What I mean by post-conscious is the very fact that, ‘God’ in the eastern philosophies and plane theories is pure consciousness – that is the ultimate goal after all. No matter, no thoughts, no time/space, just pure consciousness. Everything is supposed to be made by consciousness, it is the stuff that God is made of let’s say. In a post-conscious state pure consciousness is not the ultimate existence, in a post-conscious state consciousness coexists with other forms of ‘being.’ Clearly therefore it is very much possible that we are just intrinsic properties of consciousness, we are in effect, consciousness interacting with consciousness within a medium of consciousness. To make things clear I have made these diagrams. On the left you can see the body of god and its various parts: matter (like our universe), subtle matter (astral planes, causal planes etc.), then the indestructible Soul residence surrounding the source. Now, all these planes are created and sustained by the ultimate consciousness, and are hence all made out of consciousness. All this in its infinite totality maybe called GOOOOD. Now on the right we see the probability of loads of these gods – the black environment that surrounds them is the post-conscious universe, a state that mere products of consciousness like us can never, ever conceive. Now that’s what I call UNCONCEIVABLE.

Sunday, 5 February 2006


A general feeling of euphoria. Nothing has changed – yet all is accepted. One looks for a meaning and one then finds none. Contemplation finally brings about the revelation: there is no meaning in meaning, yet meaning is all there is. In other words, you don’t have to look for meaning or purpose, it’s all in front of you, or the absence thereof. You just, live, as an outsider, an outcast, a ghost, an observer, a thought form. Perhaps, you are too far ahead for anybody to understand you, perhaps you are just talking a completely different language, or occupying completely different dimensions. But let’s face it – the chances for your growth and success in the general public are very much, slim. Perhaps you are in a minority of people? A minority of let’s say… 1.4%? And anyway in this world, even the winners are losers in the end. I guess you just try to make what’s best for you from your outside surroundings. Just like a caveman would have to improvise to I dunno make fire or hunt or make tools or whatever to make his sodding life easier – so do you just hang on from things, knobs, table tops to make your life as easier as possible until death finally comes. You are not special, you are just… different. A mistake of evolution, an old sole, the bottom of the food chain? Is it perhaps time to look inwards? To search for new, better realities perhaps, or even enhance our very personalities. Maybe you are a star seed, a recurrent soul that awaits for things to change. Whatever you do, don’t do drugs. Drugs are bad, seriously. Then again some LSD is always good to convince anybody about the higher realms of reality. So is K for a near-death experience, or lots and lots of skunk in combination with HemiSync® brainwaves. Now that’s a treat. But seriously if you can remain sober… the better for you. Anyway, I’m depressed that’s why I am giving a shpeal. Bye.

Friday, 3 February 2006


Are you an old sole?
The older you become karmically, the more weary you become of this world. Imagine having repeated hundreds of lives, over and over again repeating mistakes or creating new ones, feeling pain over and over again. It is indeed an awful state. The good news is that by now you have learned a lot of lessons and you are closer to ending your earthly duty – you have grown cynical, bored, desensitised. You are attracted to expanding your consciousness whether that be through meditation, drugs, HemiSync® brainwaves, technology, books, philosophy, the Internet. You’d rather live in your dreams than in ‘reality’. In fact your dreams tend to become what you choose to be reality whilst the physical world becomes a dream itself – you being one of its ghosts, haunting the earth, trying to find a way out. You are indeed closer to a ghost rather than a human being although you might now quite be aware that. People close to you (they’re not a lot) share the same concerns as you – you have probably shared hundreds of lives together and you feel that for each other. They too, in their own way, seek escape and quiet – some of them might resort to very drastic measures, others might fall into depression. Some might insist into assimilating into everyday life and fail miserably and others might simply try to kill themselves. In the end of the day, you are all outcasts.

This is a crucial time – you have now reached a state of a Repetitive ‘Ghost’ Continuum, you must now consciously and willingly break apart from this world and its attractions (emotional, material, intellectual, etc.). Of course, you could always go with the flow and reach a lower astral plane in another 2-3 lifetimes, but then you risk being stuck there for a long time and risk coming back to earth also. I would suggest if you reach a lower astral plane, to ask for guidance for a route upwards – it won’t take long. As discussed before, even when you choose to go a certain path of let’s say more active disengagement from the material world it’s still part of the natural progression of life – you are not creating your destiny, you are fulfilling it. Yet at the same time it’s wholly up to you since at this matter reflexivity always prevails. Therefore, destiny should be regarded as something that we completely control yet it somehow is predestined. So, why not things make easier and faster for you – if you are attracted to disengagement, then you should better do something about it.

Negotiation Period
Must clarify that an attraction to disengagement has nothing to do with an attraction to death. This is quite the opposite of death – a place of almost infinity and high sense of morality, not a lot of people are ready for such a place. Also there is no need for death to disengage, you can leave your physical body whenever and return back – this should be seen as a kind of liaise with the higher planes. In other words, now that you have reached close to the end of your physical existence, you must start negotiations with the higher forces. Once you have achieved clear communication with your guardians, protectors, friends, etc, you can visit your Akashic Records and see what’s up with your life, like your past lives, your future etc. If you see that there is a future life in your future, you might be able to negotiate it and evade it, you might also actually like the idea of that next life and go for it.

Lucid Hints
Once you start practicing this disengagement and establishment of communication, you will immediately see results. Your dreams will become more and more lucid and quite prophetic. This is because in the early stages you are granted only partial memory. That means that you might be actually astral projecting every night but you simply don’t remember the action of projection – although you might remember other things that happened later on. The things you do remember when you wake up are usually the most important bits of the whole journey. For example lets say in the course of your journey you have reached your Akashic Records and perhaps willed to see your future in 100 years. When accessing Akashic Records, you actually ‘live’ the events as they will happen in something that can be only compared to a very real Virtual Reality room. When you later wake up you might remember only a flash from the future and nothing of what led to it. This partial memory was left because perhaps a certain event in your future had impressed you but since you have no memory of what it actually represents, you disregard it as a random dream. When you have recollection of lucid dreams it means that you are on your way. You should try to ‘wake up’ in your lucid dreams and take complete control of the dream, including its memory imprinting. For example I had a recent dream of a cat being hurt, I instantly awoke in my dream and healed it with white light, in another occasion a cat protected me (obviously I have a cat-formed protector) from a foe and then wisped me to a distant future – clearly I had been guided by my protector to the Akashic Temple.