Tuesday, 18 October 2005


This is my natal chart… it is very interesting isn’t it? Everything is concentrated in the last 5 signs, and especially Pisces and Aquarius. I have Piscean Sun, Lilith and second house, while I have Aquarian ascendant, Mercury and Venus! This makes quite a bizarre combination and if that wasn’t enough it is coupled with Capricorn Moon, Jupiter, Neptune and 9th house.

It seems I have a tendency to avoid the harsh realities either through escapist behavior or self-delusion. This leads to me retreating into my own world, self-pitying and giving pep talks to myself ("Everybody’s Miserable!"). But these periods are rather short-lived and even useful. Pisces seems to derive energy from their (generally short) bouts of self-pity.

Ready to Aqua *******
“INTPs are introverted rationals like the Masterminds but use perceptivity instead of judgment as a preferred method of processing information. These rationals may fare better in the transition from Piscean to Aquarian Age as perceptivity is a quality of Pisces while judgment is a quality of Aquarius.” My powerful Pisces-Aquarius combo – signifies just that – the transition from Piscean to Aquarian. This means that I am in tune with the change of times that earth is going through right now. The difference being that my ascendance in comparison to earth’s ascendance is much more rapid due to scale obviously, which means that I am indeed ahead of my time. Indeed it’s an Aquarian characteristic to feel ‘ahead of your time’.

The Vulcans are coming!
“Aquarians are the "gawky nerdy", "absent-minded professors" or mad scientists but the charateristics that better describe them are iconoclasm, emotional "hardness", bisexual, asexual or androgynous orientation, teambuilding, innovation and perhaps some social anarchy (from behavior that shocks conservative people to a general disregard for rules).” These characteristics also describe the age we are entering right now, and one can say that Earth is going to become fully Uranian or in trekkie terms… Vulcan. Already we are seeing Uranian/Aquarian side-effects such as the re-emergence of a rejuvenated third sex that is fully adaptable to the technologically oriented Aquarian age.

It’s the Future!!
“In addition, we may see a gradual replacement of the icon of Jesus with something that is indicative of Aquarian values, such as the computer, the committee, the scientist, the group, the mind or the iconoclast.” Iconoclasm is also emerging with a vengeance, at least in Western societies and technology is booming. Cloning, artificial reproduction, genetic modification, computers, third sex/metrosexuality/male and female roles fade, globalization, space ventures, and most importantly elimination of emotion, passion and concepts of heroism and romantic love are characteristics of the Aquarian age. For me this future, despite its obvious disadvantages (panopticism, fully mediated environments, singularity) sounds so cool. That’s the kind of world I’d like to live in – I love technology, my sex is utterly confused in today’s terms, and I’m all up for the change of values. The Piscean values suck – I can understand and respect them, but it’s time we get out of the whole religious/war-like situation and embrace technology as our new religion. In true human manner we will indeed embrace technology and it will bite us in the ass so bad we will want to get rid of it. But until that happens I’ll be dead so I don’t really give a shit.

Apocalypse Now!
Of course all that will happen if we manage to miraculously survive what’s coming to us in 2012. The aliens from outer space are coming to save us, but there is a big possibility that we will kill them before they come to save us from our real enemy. And not only that, how are we going to survive the natural (and mechanical) disasters in the equinox precession period of 2004-2012? If we do, we will be for good into an Aquarian Golden Age of advanced bioetheric technology, social re-construction and advanced spiritual capabilities. The next years until 2012 are going to be a preparation for the big ‘test’ which may last up until 2160 – if humans manage to do that extra mile forward, and surpass themselves, they will be granted with the prosperous Vulcan age, if not then they will be extinct to let other life-forms advance where they have failed…

Quotes from:

Sunday, 16 October 2005

a poem


Oxygen makes you old.
Water makes you up.
Salt makes you stressed.
Chocolate makes you sexual.
Bananas give you spots.
Milk makes you queasy.
Fags make you cool.
Weed makes you imaginative.
Acid changes your perspective.
E makes you shiver.
Alcohol makes you sick.
Coke makes you bitchy.
K takes you out of this world.

Tuesday, 4 October 2005

MRKISM//Concept Order

This will be an updated list of universal truths as I experience them through meditation, lucid dreams and trances, as well as insights revealed from inspired books.

Law of Kitsch Nihilism:
Zero: Reality is a very complicated order of zero.
Fluidity: We are the creators of our reality
Vicious Circle: We constantly go through theoptosis and theogony.
Dimensions: There are infinite dimensions times infinite definitions of dimension:

Consciousness is the ultimate dimension that perceives or creates dimensions, that infinitely intercept each other creating infinite copies of one another, while being influenced by unthinkable terms beyond consciousness. Consciousness is all and zero.

Dimensions so far:
1. Subjective dimension –consciousness perceives a dimension
2. Interceptive dimension –consciousness intercepts itself
3. Thought dimension – consciousness creates a dimension
4. Holistic dimension – consciousness is a dimension
5. Infinite dimension – each dimension is a copy of itself
6. Dimension X – consciousness is intercepted and influenced by unthinkable terms beyond it.
7. True dimension – consciousness is all
8. Nihilistic dimension – consciousness is zero

We are comprised of multiple personalities/beings.
It is a natural/compulsory process to advance ‘spiritually’
Karmic Leaps – one for all and all for one
Infinity Cells – consciousness made out of consciousness made out of consciousness.

Law of Miserabilia: Misery is embedded within our very existence.

Law of Matter:
The material human brain is finite and predictable
Our world is as real as it is fake.
Matter is a product of consciousness.

Law of Hierarchy:
We are divided into 4 categories of villagers, traders, soldiers and philosophers.
Incomplete religions will take you up to a certain level/dimension.

Love is not an emotion, it’s a state of selflessness. (eros » sticking together » unity » selflessness)
One must always be aware of the falseness of it all.
The goal of MRKISM is emptiness, nothingness, zero.
Thoughts, emotions, feelings, sensations are all convertible energy.


A title that’s been hanging on a sticky for some time now… but I was waiting for the right time for it. You know, until I felt it. What is miserabilia? It is a law that governs human kind. The law of misery. See, people always strive for happiness. Why? Because they’re miserable. Do you know anybody who is REALLY, really, happy? I don’t think so. I keep having this fear that when I grow up I’ll be this miserable old man… but the truth is, 1) I’m miserable anyway and 2) I’ll always be miserable. So why be afraid? Should just accept it as a natural fact about life. Like death, there is pain, there is misery, and there is nothing you can do about it. Or is there? Why are we miserable? The list is long and infinite… where do I start?

Top20 Miserabilia

1. We are alone
2. We are alone in the universe
3. We are generally useless, meaningless.
4. We die
5. We grow old
6. We have minimum effect over our environment
7. We are dependent on our environment to survive
8. We get sick
9. We get mad
10. We get depressed
11. We don’t know anything
12. We are fucked up
13. We are dependent on others
14. We are lost
15. We kill each other
16. We hurt each other
17. Nobody understands us
18. We don’t know what we are doing
19. We are human
20. We are stupid

You may replace the ‘we are’ with ‘I am’ for more emphasis where applicable. So there you go. Can’t get any clearer than that. I don’t believe that there is anybody out there that won’t agree with at least 15 of these. In case there is a happy bunny reading this, then just go to points 15&16 and think.

Miserabilia Awareness
Religion does not apply and cannot influence the Miserabilia (MB) law. MBs run through the cortex of humanity, influencing us subtly but immensely. Humans with increased awareness of MB, may turn to narcotics, alcohol or sedatives. Others go mad and others go very very cynic. Some a combination of the above. Humans with lower awareness of MB, may experience delusions and erratic behaviour, saying bollocks like “life is beautiful” or “enjoy life” etc., whilst some are borderline wavering between the two.

Despite awareness level or not, MB affects man-kind throughout. And its existence is due to that something that we lack. Let’s try a fun inversion of the top 20 list and see what we miss: unity, universal unity, purpose, eternal life, youth, power, strength, immunity, clarity, happiness, knowledge, tranquillity, emotional strength, love, compassion, understanding, guidance, perfection, intelligence. Sounds about right, my impromptu list was good after all.

Taking control of misery
Need I say more? It’s obvious how miserable we are. Is it the need of wanting what one doesn’t have that leads us to misery? Well of course – we need more, we expect more of ourselves, from others etc, and that’s how we grow, thriving on misery. It helps us move on and on, trying to avoid it but never losing it. Miserabilia is about a moving process, a perpetuating one without ending – whereas concepts like wisdom, love, knowledge, tranquillity, all have a fatalistic/utopian outlook. Miserabilia is the driving force behind our every move. We use its power to avoid it – which is a conflicting action. If one faces one’s miserabilium, one will be granted insight into a new order of things. One will realise the inner purpose of miserabilia, and one will learn to work with it to succeed. Miserabilia doesn’t cease to be a force, an energy source, one that is with us a lot. So instead of engulfing yourself in it, use it, externalise it – and you will be granted undoubtedly new powers. Obviously one must become truly aware of the miserabilia factor in one’s life to be able to manipulate it.